A year that was..

As I'm writing this post it is already January 1, 2010, 2:27AM in my personal computer at work.

I could no longer remember all the past events for the year 2009 but just for a short year end story.. then let us reminisce the past..

..Was it just last January 2009 that I declared myself free and available after 2 years of having a very bad and cruel relationship with my ex-boyfriend?
...At the same month, it was my first month to be with friends during Sinulog and watched fireworks display at Ayala Center and walked out as soon as the show was finished?
....Was it just last February 14 that me and my barkada had our first barkada trip for the year 2009? We spent the whole night together at Sheila and Jean's house somewhere in Lahug, had pizza at mommie's
and hot choco at mcdo. We failed to have the usual videoke session because there were no vacant that time because it was Valentine's Day. The next day after, Sheila departed to Manhattan to study there. But as every story ends, ang nagada mo balik gyud na!. ahhaha. She came back here in Philippines last June after begging

her mommy to just continue her studies in Cebu Doctor's instead in Manhattan.
....Was it just last April that I had been hospitalized for 2 weeks because of something bad that happened to me. Not to mention that I almost died if my parents were not able to bring me to the hospital. God forbid. I don't want that horrible incident to happen again. 
....Was it just last May that I got addicted to Dota after hibernating for 2 years? Me and my officemates would play dota right after shift twice or trice a week at Gol's TC. Usually, it would end up at 1 or 2 in the afternoon. Yes, sleepless days but being tired out is just worth it.
....Was it just last June that I did a very bad mistake of letting myself get close to someone and got myself hurt at the end? One of my closest friend, scolded me because of  this said mistake. I was also suspended at work because of having 3 AWOL's in one payroll cycle. Too many lapses were committed. Maybe, I was one of the most stupid person on earth during that month but I had learned a lot after all the "kabobohan" move.
...August? I'm not sure though what something memorable happened to me but I knew I had already moved on from the previous month's mistakes.
...September 5 was one of the most unforgettable birthday ever I had in my entire life. After shift, since that was Saturday, I spent the whole morning with my family. Late in the afternoon, me, Sheena, Sai and Matt went to Dessert Factory to have a little celebration of my 21st birthday. Afterwards, Me, Matt and Sheena had a bar hopping trip. First, at Kalye 80's, 2nd at Brew's Point. Somehow, we had to end the night and separate ways. Sheena met with his boyfriend, Matt went home and I went to Ricardo's Talamban
because my friends (barkada) were all waiting for me. We just had our tagay break at Cheaverz and had Karaoke at Nuvo around 5 in the morning. A very busy one. The fun I had that day was irreplaceable.
....October, It was my hiring month. I just turned 2 years. Another unforgettable event was the Mt. Lantoy climb sidetrip Agta Cave in Argao, Cebu. Me and some mountaineering members, who are also my officemates, went to a wonderful climb spot. It was quite an adventure. 

...November, that was 2 months ago. I went back to school after I stopped for 2 years because of some reasons I could not tell. One of the best month I ever had in the year 2009, I just had a boyfriend who loves me whole heartedly until now.
...December..Just spent my Christmas with my family and my boyfriend as well. No duty.. not at work. But was badly sick. I spent the whole night sleeping instead of having fun. LOL.
..January 1, 2010. Present. Had my first supervisory call. Was my 2nd time to work during the new year's eve. But it's alright..

Just sharing my year ender special. lol. ahhaha

before 2009 ends

I wish everyone a happy new year. Let's look forward for 2010... yepey!!!!

.. will be posting something about my year 2009.

Pseudo Relationship: Part 1

They are officemates. They are not in a relationship but they have this special bond. They share their constant ramblings and understand each other well. They been on the said "relationship"  (the parang kami or hindi relationship) for almost a year. They share private messages using their personal emails, YM and even text messages. They are both married and living a happy life. But
could you just imagine that they are happier when they are together and not when they are with their original partners? The girl could not live the guy alone nor the
other way around. Nobody knew their whereabouts, they have been very secretive. They usually go out and even had sex more than once before. They get jealous at each other but could not tell it afraid that it might break the so-called relationship. They are acting like they have something but they just tell everyone they do not have. A very complicated situation. Fallen with each others trap. No holding back of feelings. Just taking the risk of being happy and merry. 

Is it love or just a normal feeling? I'm not a judge, you aren't a judge either.

Present.....  they
are very good friends but with no benefits at all. They both have a hard time letting go each other.. Pseudo relationship. The parang kami, parang hindi relationship is just so damn difficult to deal with. .....

Who are they? I am asking you too..

What a Christmas!!!! a Jell-O experience????

On the 24th of December, Thursday, me, Dag2x and my boyfriend decided to watch Avatar. I was so excited to watch it because of the reviews I have read about the much awaited movie. 

After my shift, I decided to go home to spend time with my family. When I got home, instead of going to sleep, I watched Vampire Diaries sequel. Around 11:30 in the morning, I didn't notice that I fell asleep. At exactly 12:45 in the afternoon, I woke up and took a bath and immediately went to SM to meet my boyfriend. Dag2x was a bit late and I just bought a ticket for him worth 250 because we chose to watch the 3d version. At first, I was so excited and was so happy as the 3 of us, got inside Cinema 3 and sat at the seats located at the center part. Backwards, my head was already aching badly. Probably because I didn't get enough sleep or I didn't have sleep at all or might be, I was not able to eat on time. Moving on, as we watched the movie, I felt that I was going to collapse and vomit at the same time. I'm not sure what was the reason why it happened to me, all I know was at the end of the movie, I immediately run to the comfort room and vomit 5 times. Sh*T!!! I was so embarrassed!!!... You know why? Because when I went out from the bathroom, all girls there were staring at me, teenagers and adults. That was my first experienced to vomit right after watching a movie!!.. I believed the reason behind it was the lack of sleep, the 3d movie itself coz I'm not used to and eating in no time. In other words, GIKABUHI ko pag ayo. I was teary-eyed when I went outside to meet Dag2 and my booh at the cinema lobby. My throat was so dry after I vomit more than once. My head ached more. And I didn't talk anymore because I was so afraid that I might vomit again. I looked around and the place was spinning. It seemed that I was in a whirl wind. We just decided to go home, though I didn't want to, ride a taxi cab going to my boo's house. I took a nap and minutes later, we went to Consolacion. I feel so numb and my body was so weak. I slept until 12 midnight, woke up, watched the fireworks for more or less than 30 minutes and went to sleep again. For the first time in history, I just slept during the wonderful occasion. I could not think of anything important that time. All I knew was, I'm craving for a sleep and my world was spinning. I guess I was not just alone who vomit after watching a 3d movie, my friend, Michael, as well. Maybe we were not just used to. Mga ihas man gud!. hahahaha..

Merry Christmas to all

I would just like to greet everyone a happy Christmas...:)..

That's all folks!..

Enjoy!

new domain in town....

I just registered a domain name yesterday night which was maey.info. I chose .info TLD because of the fact, that it was the cheapest TLD offered by 1&1 and I kinda liked it. For me, it doesn't really matter what the TLD of my domain will be as long as I like the domain itself then i'll go for it. At first, I craved for .me but later on, I just decided to have .info instead, since it is possible to have that tld in 1&1. Aside from that, the hosting of my domain was actually pointing to a Virtual Private Server package, also known as VPS. 

Let's just see what will happen this time..:)

Weeeeeee.........

Christmas get together..:)

Christmas is fast approaching. Three days from now, the special day will be celebrated by everyone. Am excited myself because my CWS was just approved by my Supervisor and I won't be present this coming Thursday and Friday, December 24 and 25, 2009. Instead, I'll be at work this Saturday and Sunday. Weee... It will be my first time to have my CWS this year 2009 and will be my last as well. I'm kinda excited because I would be able to spend time with my family during the special occasion. We will going to have a family reunion and will be held in our house. My relatives will come over and we will going to have a small celebration. Exchanging gifts will be present as always and of course, precious gifts from my cousins, aunts and uncles. Since I'm always at work and don't have much time with my family at all, then this coming holiday, will be the first time of the year that I'll be spending my whole day and night with them. Surely it would be a joyful and great day too.

Pic from Wikipedia.org

crabby..my paborito

Look at me at this picture, it was one of the nicest pic I ever had. I'm not wearing any make-up and I just woke up, very natural. T'was taken early in the morning at my boo's house. This little thingy I'm holding was actually one of my favorite seafood. I always love to eat seafood. The little thingy, crabby, was still moving when I picked it up. When crabby was already cooked, I had a great time eating it by myself. Too greedy and selfish to share it to anyone. HAHAHA.. It's my favorite you know..

Our Team's Belen

Christmas if fast approaching but I could not feel the spirit of Christmas anymore for the past 2 years already. You might be asking why,its simple, it was all because of my work and the hectic schedule. Give me a break people.. This coming Christmas day I won't be home, I could not attend our family reunion nor the little gathering that will be held at home during the said day. On that special day, I will be at the office, taking calls and doing some emails.I could not feel the spirit unlike before that I'm always counting the days before Christmas. Indeed, it is a way different when I'm still studying. I will just be watching the fireworks and hear the firecrackers outside the building. I will just pray and wish that my family will be happier each year celebrating the birth of Jesus.

Look at the picture above, that was our team belen. Actual people portraying "the belen". So proud to say that we won second place for the belen contest though we did not win the parol making contest. Our team had a hard time finding the right place. What so funny about that scene was the stuff toy we used as the baby Jesus. It looked like a Pinocchio with a red nose on it. LOL. You might be asking where we had our photo shoot. Well, that is so easy to answer. It was actually at the top of the stage where there a lot of cadena de amor and some garbage. The whole place was sort of a mess and we cleaned it for 15 minutes. hahaha Well, at least, we still won after all the hardship we went through just to portray "the belen" and play our designated roles.

A day that was...

So so busy.. It's not easy working, at the same time schooling and managing my own business. But it's fine.

Well, I just want to share how happy I was last Sunday, December 13, 2009. We had our company Christmas Party at Waterfront Hotel with a White Christmas theme. Dashing formal ladies and gentlemen filled the ballroom hall. Not to mention the formal outfits that all of us were wearing. I didn't see my officemates with their usual getup everyday at work but a different one. Most of us there were just first timers to wear all white outfits. Me, myself, I had a hard time finding the right formal dress for me because wearing color white dresses make me look like a fat lady. hahaha.. The most important part there was, the party was a success and everyone had a great time.

Just lemme share some random pics at the party.. weeee

From left to right.. Sheena, Jeni, Budz and Me

From left to right: Sheena, Aw2x, Kulit and Me

From left to right: Kulit, Jo, Me, Sheena, CJ and Aw2x

With my buddies..

From left to right: My, Master Yong, Joemskie, Dag2x and Me.

More pictures were uploaded in my webspace and others were not uploaded yet. Keep posted..:)

KFC break at Ayala

Me and my shopmates (Ricardo's Cafe located near USC-TC) just had our KFC break. I missed my barkada so much. If I'm not mistaken we had our last foodtrip and session 3 months ago. Everyone was so busy with their own business. We didn't just hang-out with no purpose though. The little gathering we had was also because Kuya Syan got accepted for TSR position in Teletech. Welcome to the world!!!!..:) It was so nice being with my barkada even for a short period of time. We just ordered 2 bucket meals at KFC. At least we did not do the usual which is getting wasted at Cheaverz. hhahaha.. Maybe, if it is my rest day today, we might as well go to Cheaverz and got ourselves wasted like the old times. Sad to say, my girl friend was not able to come because she was not at the shop when we decided to have a foodtrip. She might as well enjoy the hot & crispy deep fried chicken, mushed potato, cabbage salad and the cold coke. I may had spent some penny for having the kind of gathering, but the feeling was great. There's this saying: share whatever blessings you have. XOXO

Sayang, I don't have any pic. Next time nalang. hahahah

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Books. Books. Books.

I'm so occupied this past few days. Books were piled in my bookshelf  waiting for me to read them. So hectic schedule. So many things to do. I don't have time to study harder to all my subjects and I easily get tired nowadays by just looking at my books or the xerox copies I usually placed in my study table at home. I'm trying to figure out a way to minimize doing the things that will make me tired or put me into anxiety. Studying and working at the same time is not so easy like what I always thought. Few months back, I always have this usual reclaim why my teammates who were also working and studying at the same time, fell into sleep during a conversation they had with a customer. Too one sided thought maybe. I probably had that thought because I was not in their shoe. Recently, I just realized that it was never easy to do things at once, multi-tasking in other words. It needs focus and lot of sacrifice to do things perfectly without committing any mistake along the way. It is tiring but its worth the sweat and effort. Hopefully, God will keep on guiding me to go to the right path. At this hour, I am very busy studying my notes for my exam this coming Friday. Just wish me luck and may God bless me all the time... Ciao!

prolonged pain...

Sh*t!!! My stomach is throbbing in pain. Earlier today, my tooth was badly aching. Stupid wisdom tooth. I thought the pain won't last long but damn it!.. It's becoming more painful.. painful.. and painful.. Going back.. Just what I've thought.. my ulcer strikes again. It has been a week since my ulcer keeps on pestering me.. Give me a break, will you? Every time I take pain relievers, the pain will just go away at least an hour or two but beyond that, it starts to twinge again. Sob sob sob..:(.. It gives me agony. God help me. I could not take it no more. Its getting worst and worst each day. Am I going to die? Waaaa.. not yet not yet.. it's not my time yet.

aging or what?

When I asked my friend about gaining a wisdom tooth at the age of 21, he answered me with a smile and said, "tiguwang na gyud diay ka" and replied, "what the heck!, am I really that old?". Gee, getting that kind of answer from a friend was really disturbing because I always thought that 21 is already a old age. Maybe I just have to accept the fact that people will get older each day. In denial stage, maybe or maybe no. Whatever it is I'm going to have a wisdom tooth and it is going to be a painful one. Actually, it is in weiter status.

It was just 2 days ago that my wisdom tooth started to grow. Indeed, I'm going through a lot of pain right now. I can feel that my gum, the one surrounding my tooth, is breaking partway. If  I did not take a pain reliever late this afternoon, surely I could not sleep and might been at home at this hour. Right now, am asking my teammates how can I go about my wisdom tooth which is coming out painfully and they have one common advise which was, go to a dentist. Well, I am also thinking of that but I'm too afraid to go to a dental clinic. That's one of my problem though. help help... :(

2012 - panlantaw

2012 was a blast! A heart-pounding movie next to Independence Day and the Day After Tomorrow. I only watched the movie at home though, using a pirated DVD (LOL). I was astonished by the visual and sound effects. The almost 3 hour movie was spectacular and entertaining. I will not tell the story here since a lot of viewers already seen it. There were actually two 2012 movie, the other one was 2012 Doomsday and the other one was the one I'm talking about.The 2012 Doomsday was not so good, I didn't like the effects nor the storyline but 2012, the one that I recently watched, was oozing and a top notch. Maybe, I have praised the movie too much, but can you blame me? I just liked it.

Yes! I'm back again. I hibernated for more or less than 3 weeks because I was so busy with school work and office work at the same time. I don't have time to update my blog nor post something here. I miss my bloggie so much. It is almost a month too, that me and my boyfriend were very busy going to places and food trip as well. So my bloggie was set aside for the mean time. wawa...:( BUSY NA GYUD ANG LIFE RON!!!...

I was just informed by one of the member of Mountaineering Club that we will going to have a climb this coming December 19 and 20. Wew! It would be a different experience and a bit dangerous than Mt. Lantoy adventure because the trail will be very slippery for sure, especially that it is December and its rainy season. I heard so many wonderful things about Osmeña Peak and Kawasan Falls. Our trail will start from Osmeña Peak down to Kawasan Falls which will take about 6 to 8 hours walk according to Robert, one of the officer of our club. It would be very tiring, but surely it will be a breathtaking and oozing adventure.

I have been so busy lately. It is almost 2 weeks that I do not have enough sleep and now, my body is about to deteriorate. I'm longing for a 48 hours of sleep and not the usual which is 4 to 5 hours. I noticed at the same time that my eyes are having eyebugs already. Surely, it will make me look older than my age. I'm stressed. I need to rest a bit, just a bit, I'm craving for it. I haven't seen my mom for a week now because I am so busy everyday. Either I'm at home or at work. Most of the time I'm at the office. I miss my bed. I miss everyone at home. :( I now understand the feeling of  working and at the same thing studying. Indeed, serving two masters at a time is no good and it needs a lot of sacrifice. I'm just a bit tired. Hayz....

She

Photo got from http://www.photoshopessentials.com

She's an enigma. A puzzle. She is a woman in love. She will turn your world upside down. She is melodramatic. She is kind. She can rock your world like no other can do. She is adored and hated at the same time with envious people. She doesn't care anything about other people but she do not step on anyone either. She is witty. She is responsible. She is a dreamer. She is a believer. She is very unique.  She can excite everyone. She can smile no matter how sad she is. She is a friend to everyone. She can bring big smile to everyone. She can crack a joke. She is most likely wearing a mask of different attitude to test of who among her friends are true to her. She is no ordinary woman. She is a hero of her own experiences. She is an idealistic. She is sympathetic. She is humble. She is a risk taker and critical minded. Aren't you wondering who is she? I wondered too.

first day of school..:)

Here I am facing the computer again. At the office. Thinking of how great my subject teachers were. They were all quite impressive and worth listening for. For sure, my classes will never be a boring one. Nevertheless, I will also learn new things from my instructors. I was just a lil embarrassed with my second subject which was CS 11. I did not expect the teacher to call my name and let me solve a fraction problem in front of my classmates. D*mn it! my first time to solve something for the last 2 years and to stand in front of the class. I was shocked and realized one thing, I have to review my basic mathematics. I was quite a loser that time but somehow I learned. LOL. At least I managed to solve the issue. I'm not boasting anything here.  I am just.. well.my classmates were just little behind from the things I have learned at work and at home. Nonetheless, I liked my SoSci teacher who was critical thinker and open-minded. I liked how he discussed about the things surrounding us. Maybe, this time I was just fascinated by my instructors brilliant minds.Well, I am just looking forward to every discussions and every teachings they will share to the class. :)

Wew!.. Enough of that, I still have a homework to do. My first assignment for this semester. Hope everything will go well.

Level Up! LIVE 2009

Photo by: LU

Level Up! Live 2009 - United We Play.
November 7-8, 2009
World Trade Center, Pasay, City


I had planned to attend LU Live this coming Saturday but since I could not make it because of a lot of circumstances then I will just blog it. I am a part of this one, I am an online gamer and a Level Up fanatic, I always am. My co-RF players invited me to go to Pasay just to watch this spectacular event of the year. Sadly, its not possible for me to attend. sob sob sob.... My guildmates, Loyalista, will go there as well. Cebu is too far from Pasay. I will miss one-fourth of my life not attending this much awaited event of all gamers. But there are still next time, hopefully my schedule is not fully booked on that day.

I will miss 2 events this coming Saturday, first is the Visayan Music Festival, second is LU Live. sob sob sob..

-Agta Cave-

Agta Cave is one of the most mega factor and complex cave I ventured.

Agta Cave is situated in Argao, Cebu. It is a narrow foot trail by the side of Mount Lantoy that leads to the entrance of the said cave. It was a very challenging and difficult journey because it was just my first time to climb a cave like that. We headed first to the cave on the first day of our climb and on the second day was the mountain itself. The narrow trail to the cave was very steep and slippery. The gaping hole on the roof near the middle of the cave was also known as skylight. The height of the cave at this junction has been measured to be 175 feet which is very high. Aside from that, you still have to stoop to pass the narrow mountainside trail to the entrance of the cave. Moreover, cling on a tree branch just to get into the passage which is one of the most dangerous way. The place was kinda scary because there were mountaineers who died on the spot because they fell to the rock crevices below. You should be careful in getting inside and bags should be tossed first or vice versa. You should not carry your heavy bags with you in passing the said entry for safety purposes. One wrong move and you will be so dead.

Here are some pictures taken by a friend. 

Photos by: Edcel Ceñiza  

view from the narrow mountainside trail to the cave..

rock crevices.... view from the entrance of the cave, more or less 170 plus feet. 

another view..

The passage, you still have to pass this watery passage before you can get into the entry point.

view from the inside of the cave..

The skylight.

The skylight. Astig~!

This picture was taken inside the cave. Nice one!!!

welcome back to school mae...

It fascinates me how people greeted me 2 days ago of going back to school. After 2 years of working in a Web Hosting company, I just realized that I have to put an end to my fancy ideas that I will be a better person by just working all the time. To have a job is a privilege to an individual who have not yet finished studying. I was in my 3rd year in college that I decided to apply for a job and luckily, I got one. I knew all the way that I will excel and will be able to improve my fields of expertise with that kind of job. You might be asking what is my job description. It is like this.. I am currently an Advance Technical Support Representative in a prestigious hosting company and I do take UK calls most of the time because I'm already an advance agent. It would be different if we'll going to say TSR because they usually take US calls and UK calls will not go directly to their line. The job is kinda tough but you can work without any pressure because even if you are not that technical at first, you will eventually learn. I always believe though, that someone's technicality will be improved by giving that person an ample time to learn. It is within the person's personality if he or she wants to improve or not. It is called perseverance.

Going back, im very excited and overwhelmed by all the greetings I received from all my friends and colleagues. Alas! I am doing something to fulfill my dreams. I knew, everything I am doing right now is a consolation that I can give to my parents after all their effort and sweat to send me to school. Though before I feel neglected by them. But let us leave the past behind. What is done is done.  Those reasons won't disturb and block my future plans.And this time, its for real. BIG TIME!

 Well, let just see what will happen to me while I'm working and at the same time studying. God will help me for sure.  xoxo

another tiring day.....

So tired again..Just got home from work and school. Was still so glad I managed my time without any hassle. Went to usc-main after work and passed my uniform excemption documents. Met a friend along the way and had a little chitchat with him. Then, immediately jaunted a jeepney going to usc-tc. Waited for the teacher for at least 15 minutes outside the classroom and went home afterwards. I have decided not to go to school this week. I am just fed up waiting for the instructors to show up. *sigh

The same old story, students were still falling in line in the Bursar to pay the down payment and get their admissions slips. One of my teammate who is also currently my schoolmate, was still there waiting for his turn to pay the 2k down payment. Kaluoy pod sa bata nga c Amiel. I just left him since I am so sleepy na. hahahah..  I'll just pray nga dli xa magduka later.. ky ako almost 2 weeks  na walay tulog and everyday nko cge drowse sa office..:(

That is all for now. Acio bed!

cebu presents.....Visayan Music Festival '09

The event will be this coming  Saturday, November 6-7, 2009 at Family Park, near USC-TC.

Whew!.. This is what I'm talking about with my previous post couple of days ago, Urbandub is coming to town?   I'm very excited for this event because my favorite band, Urbandub, will be there. One of the problem I have though is the conflict of schedule. First day of the said event, I will be in the office taking calls and answering emails and the next day, I will go somewhere and I could not just postpone what was planned 2 weeks ago. huhu.. I'm a little disappointed because I really wanted to see Urbandub play live on stage. Every time I hear their music it soothes me. ani na gyud ko ka adik nila..:(

Some CBS members will be there too... :( huhu.. sob sob sob.. Excited pa nmn ko makakita nila balik since I'm already a part of the group. *sigh

tumblr

Introducing my new blog site... you may click on the link below to visit my new futon...


mae's crib 

I also synchronized my tumblr site to my Facebook account so that all posts will show up in the News Feed.... I love the configuration of the new app because it is very easy to use just like Blogspot. You do not have to be techie since it is friendly user. 

Here's a picture of the said blog.

Aside from which, I will register a domain name by next month but I still have to think what niche should be there. Am still gathering data from my friends though. LOL.. :)

the sunrise

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If you take a look at this picture, you can say that it is a sunset but if you will going to take a good look at it, you can conclude that it is indeed a sunrise. 

I always love the sunrise because every time I look at it, it is also telling me to rise and shine. It inspires me to do something new and never give up on everything I wanted in life. It gives me hope to do better on everything including accepting and correcting what mistakes that was already done. Telling me to go on because everyday is a new day no matter how bad or good my day turns out. It is giving me hope to fulfill my dreams in life. It is like a magic that is unexplainable. I always wish to see the sun rise by our window at home or at the office everyday. I wish I wish..

new home..new friends..:)

Last Saturday morning, I received a text message from a new friend, Guada, who was a member of CBS, also known as Cebu Bloggers Society,  informing me that we will going to have an orientation at the same day. I was actually waiting for the confirmation if I made it to the group or not. Luckily, I made it and already a part of this so called community. I am looking forward to meet more members and befriend with them. I could not wait for that time to come. I have met several members of CBS before because of my friend Jorich and all of them are very kind and smart people. I like listening to their points of view, their stories in life and a whole lot more. I could still remember when Jorich invited me that day, he said, he will going to attend a meeting (if my memory serves me right), with other CBS members. I kept asking him questions along the way to Ayala what CBS is all about and what they usually do. He was able to give me relevant information about the group and it made me realized that I want to join. A month after that, I submitted my application because my blog was already 4 months old. I never have second thoughts about it though I'm aware that I only have a personal blog not like others that the blog they have is more like about business, travel, photography and etc. I have plans though to have a blog about places because I like to travel. I'm still thinking about what domain to register though. This November 15, I think i'm going to register a personal domain name and that is maemaye.me or maemaye.com. Hopefully, my hectic schedule nowadays will not going to be a roadblock to all my interest in life. Let's just see..

Oh.. and by the way.. I'm looking forward to attend CBS events in the future..:)  ^^_^^

Long distance relationship.. is it really that difficult?

When people hear the phrase "long distance relationship", we will often say, is it going to work? The thought we always have in mind is the struggle that will be encountered when you allow yourself to love someone far away from you. Others describe it as a challenge that two people will experience in the entire relationship. Not everyone of us though believe on that, even I myself. I have seen and knew so many lovers who are separated by distance but not in heart who are successful in terms of having LDR. Well, many people choose to give a long distance relationship a try, without knowing the consequences or the essence of it out of curiousity. 
For me, LDR works just like a normal relationship. Two people sharing each others interest, love and care for each other the most thinking that everything will work fine and the love will continue to grow. The disadvantage though is that you are far from each other. Not to mention when you want to have intimate moments with your partner whenever you desire, and most importantly, the trust required. What makes it harder, is when you want to show him or her your love and care and being able to spend time together physically. But if you will really look into it deeper, then you'll realize that it will not put the relationship into doom. Just like my friends who engage into long distance relationship. I can see that they are fighting hard to kill the loneliness they are feeling. Emotions are so intense, they cried most of the time because they could not hug nor kiss the person when they want to, letting them feel that they love them or care for them the most. 
I salute those people who keep their faithfulness and loyalty to the person they love even how far they are from each other. Trust indeed is highly recommended when it comes to LDR, without it, everything will fall badly. I'm hoping and praying that my friends who have this kind of relationship will be happy at all times though they are separated with their partners by distance.

Urbandub is coming to town???

Is it true that Urbandub will going to have a live performance this coming November 7, 2009 at Family Park near USC-TC?

I heard the news from one of my friend, people talking in the street outside the Subdivision, friends at school, but I doubt if its true or just a false information. One of my friend who shared to me the good news, (he knew that I'm a fanatic of Urbandub), that the entrance ticket can be bought in Ayala, only 150 I guessed. I got excited though and looking forward to that day. If it is true then I'll buy the ticket within this week before the tickets will be sold out. 

Weeeeeeee

another hectic day..

48 hours of no sleep? Well, too proud to say.. I survived!

Last day, that was Friday morning after my shift at work, me and some of my teammates went to USC-Main Campus to process our enrollment. When we were still in the PUJ, I was thinking of a lot of things about my studies. Honestly, I'm not interested anymore to continue my business course. That is why it took me so long to process my enrollment aside from the fact that I could not get any subject this second semester if I will continue my BS-ENTREP. So, with no further ado I decided to shift to ACT major in Multimedia. The course suits me best because I already know the how's and what's. When I looked the prospectus of ACT-MT, I was mesmerized for the fact that almost all the courses offered are related to my field of expertise. I hurriedly, asked for a shiftee form and let the BA Chairman sign it. After that, was interviewed by the Guidance Counselor and finally, the CAS Chairman. I just got lucky that during the encoding of subjects, that was late in the afternoon, I saw one of the Supervisor I know at the office in the encoding room. Before I could get a white form which is highly needed for you to encode the courses, my subjects were already encoded by the Supervisor I know at work. She's also a teacher in USC.  Unsuccessfully, I was not able to pay the down payment because the line was too long and it was almost 6pm. Well, there will still be next week. I'll just go back to school after my shift to pay my tuition fee. 

At around 6pm plus, I arrived at the office, thinking that I could get a goodnight sleep though I'm aware that I could only sleep at least 3 hours before my shift starts. Badly, when I'm in the sleeping room, I could not sleep because some agents were talking out of their lungs there. Can you just imagine? Sleeping room was transformed to a loud room? What the!.. I liked to shout at them.. "SHUT UP" guys.. can't you see someone is struggling to get a sleep? Not a good one but at least one you can rest your body and sleep for a while. Was so pissed off then. Around 9pm I went at the 16th floor of the building, went to my pc and turned it on. Took calls and did not answered emails. Will go home later and will do everything to have a goodnight sleep. 

Need to rest, my body is already shaking. Wew!

I know I am capable of trusting people but once I feel my trust has been betrayed then I could never ever trust that person again. I always stand what I believe in and I don't let people dictate what I'm going to do or what I must do. I hate it when someone will try their best to regain my trust after I lost my confidence with them. I can be a friend to that person but never will we become good friends again nor more than that. I may appear bad at this point of not giving a chance to that person again but how could I trust anyone if all the time I can feel that everyone is just using my goodness? I hate it!! I hate him!! I hate her!!.. I have forgiven that person of what that someone did to me but it does not mean I have already forgotten what has been done. I don't want that someone to bring up the topic again that took ages ago. Sorry is enough but telling me to trust that person again is too much. Why not give it at least years or shall we say the come what may style to gain my trust again? I'm not putting any pressure to that person but I just wanted that someone to leave me alone.

PNS - Teambuilding

Just a week ago, my team had our 2nd team building in Catmon, Cebu. The place was great and so as the sea. We rented a rest house nearby the seashore which only cost 1000. The foods served were superb and very delicious. We did not have any kind of lechon serve in the table but still we enjoyed and had fun. We also had fun because of the games. It was like an amazing race that you need to get a clue for you to proceed to the next hint and to finish the game. Thanks to our teammate, Rhow, who did a good job and was thinking about the game play for a week. Wew!


Check out the pics.... 

 

AND A LOT MORE...xoxo

I just noticed and realized that I was very busy procrastinating things forgetting the fact that I still have so many things to do. I was just wondering around not doing something worthwhile for the past two weeks. Luckily, I woke up and realized that I should keep on going. Not the end of the world. 

Sorry my blog if you were left behind while I kept on doing stuffs which were not that important. Was too lazy to open a new window in my Mozilla browser to update you. I miss you so much my bloggie..hugs..xoxo

I'm not in hiatus anymore. weeeeeeeeeee...

I don't trust him anymore. He is just another ruthless guy. So long mi amigo. Adios!!!

as time passes by....

We are strangers starting on a journey..

We have been friends for more or less than 12 years now. We are still so young back then. It is so amazing how the years make us strong and even mature us as a person. We are not sure though how we end up as best buddies or how we started. It was 12 years ago that we decided to form this group. We called ourselves LUMBRICUS. Means, always together. 

Jeanette, Sheila, Bea and LM. Those are my friend's name. Yes, we live in the same place not knowing we will find friends that are worth keeping for. We started hanging out. First, in our open space, near the Chapel of our Subdivision. Watching movie is one of our trip, cooking pancit canton at Shei and Jeanette's house, band trip at LM's place and so much more. We have lots of fun everytime we are together doing our usual trippings. 

We have different ideas in life, love, diverse attitudes and disimilar dislikes and likes. But who cares?!.. as long as we enjoy each other's company and understand each other inspite of our indifferences.. then go!.. We don't care that much and have accepted each other whole heartedly without any doubts. 

I value my girl friends as much as they value me. I love them.. I do and will always do..:)

Take care GF's.. 

punishment or natural phenomena?

Is God punishing us? Everything that is going on in the whole world right now seems to be the signs found in the Bible. It seems that we are being punished by the bad doings we are doing with our nature and with ourselves. I really wonder why we are having so many devastating natural disasters nowadays. Typhoons, earthquakes, hurricanes, fires and so much more. Is this how God demonstrates his great displeasure to us humans, that we have become wicked? Sigh* I'm not really sure though what are the things I should believe why these are happening to us. Is it just a natural phenomena or punishment? Is nature punishing us? Anyone? I need an answer..

Tick tack tick tack.. Wew!. October.. 

I'm wondering what are my trips for this month.  One thing is on my mind right now is "school". I'm really confused today. I woke up having confusing thoughts about my studies. I want to continue my Business Administration course because I want to be on a clerical work or office work. But at the same time, I like to continue my computer related course which is COMPE. I know I'm good in calculations and all but I also believed that I can apply it in my business related course. When my parents forced me to shift to BA, I really had a tough time dealing with it. Actually, I stopped in the middle of the semester and I looked for a job. Luckily, I was hired by one of the company here in Cebu which is a Webhosting company. I've been working for 2 years now and a bit bored on it. That's why I'm looking for something to spice it up a little. I'm just confused. Laina sa feeling wuiz!.. OK OK OK.. focus... FOCUS!!!!!!

Thinking of the memories of the past gives me nostalgia. There are a lot of things wasted. Too many buts, ifs and the could bes'. I was so immature back then. So fierce and very emotional. Everything was topsy-turvy. Wishing I could turn back time and correct whatever dreadful mistakes I did. I wish I was that strong before. Maybe I will not be having this kind life. Should I be thankful for those mistakes? I may appear as if I don't care of anything about it at all, but deep inside I'm crying. I want to go back to the past. I'm craving for it. Longing for it. God help me. I'm bedevil. I'm screaming for help.. SOS!!!!!.. 

Love Crisis: Part 2

My friend is right, love is tiresome if you fall in love with someone in the wrong time or with the wrong person. What makes it a wrong person? Because probably, he has someone  else , particularly a girlfriend, a wife, or someone he committed his self with or might be, he  is not just the person you really want  to be though he is very much available. For me, love crisis is not that hard. We are just the one making it  hard  because of the  evil thoughts or negatives invading our minds. That may include jealousy and mistrust. Might be because of some traumatic experiences. I, myself, experienced it. I experienced to be loved, fooled, mistrusted, and all other bad experiences when it comes to love. 

Trust. Is one essential element when it comes having a relationship with someone. I agree that if you do not trust others it is good as saying you are not trusting yourself. I just shared some thoughts about this with a friend. True, that I trust myself however, it is really hard for me to trust others because of what I had experienced in the past. Reason why this topic was brought up then? It was because of the fact that I am afraid of going out with anyone. He said, why not try to go out, start to mingle, date as long as it pleases you. 
It was too hard then for me to open up again. But just 2 weeks ago, I did myself a favor. I went out with someone I will probably like. There's no sense of being afraid, I think. I guessed, it was worth a try. Wallah!!!..I just realized I did not make the wrong decision. It was indeed something. A new phase. It thrills me. Very exciting!.


Just keep posted!.. Love Crisis: Part 3 coming soon.

I'm Back!

It's good to be back!.. Yes! you read it right. Im back.

Wew!.. It's been 2 weeks or so since I last posted something about my whereabouts here. I've been on hiatus because of some series of events in my life that I could not just ignore. I missed blogging so much!.. Well so much about that.. Here are the things that kept me busy for the past days..


1. Been processing my shiftee form for almost 2 weeks plus now. I could not just finish it immediately, though I really want to. It's one heck of a suicide if I'll wait for the BA chairman at USC main campus to show up in his office and sign my shiftee form. Ayt?! 
My friend, Christine, just told me last Wednesday that the chairman is somewhat very busy these days attending series of meetings, programs, thesis presentation and etc. I hate to say this, but it's very hassle. I could not just take it anymore. *sigh
Okay, stop complaining Mae, look for the solution not the problem. Think positive. You will surely finish it.. SOON! 


2. Been addicted to Gossip Girl. Within the span of 2 days I finished watching season 1 and season 2 of GG. XOXO. I like the characters and the story line. Aside from which, the lesson I get in every episode. 


3. Met new friends. I just met another set of friends. Barkada of my special someone (winky-winky, naa gyud mo react ani for sure). I had fun with them last last Saturday. 
Ms. Friendship as what my sissie commented on me. I could not just help myself but befriend with everybody I will meet on my journey in life. 


4. Busy Busyhan sa house. The word "busy" for me is frequently my excuse for any appointment which I don't like to commit. Harsh? it's not. I could not just tell someone or anyone straight to their face that I don't like their company. AYT?!.. Too much honestly probably will hurt them nor insult them.. ahhaha.. Sorry. But I'm just like that. I only go out with those people I feel like going out. *Chessy.. No wonder I went out with mr. mysterious. 

5. Work. I'm just deeply, seriously, awfully, dreadfully busy with my work. I'm working on my stats. Coping up with new mind set. Wew!.. I'm quite stressed. Stop COMPLAINING!!!.. It won't do you any good Mae. Think why you have to work. BE positive. Be optimistic. Don't entertain your very pessimistic mind. It will just ruin you.. It will .. For sure.. Don't be..



Well, so nice to be back, watch out for my next post. My friend demanded me to make the love crisis, part 2. Soonest time as possible... TSK TSK...

The memory still lingers on....

Embers and Envelopes by Mae

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things trite,
forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

We write to patch things up,
maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the One
whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
there'll be room for change, but gradually.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

If all is said and done and over,
if we don't have to, we're not going to.
Make the change, it's worth the try.

What's broken can be fixed tonight.

As I scanned my playlist in my computer. I just found this song. Wew!.. Whenever I hear this song I will remember all the memories I had with a person who I'm not supposed to fall in love with. Those were stupid days but I never forget also the good times we had together. The relationship we had is somewhat a pseudo. I don't regret spending my precious time with him though I knew in the end I will only hurt myself. I only looked at him as a friend at the start but eventually, unfortunately, I have fallen for him because he understands and cares for me the most like no other guys did. We may had a bad ending but I did not look at it as bad as it was. We are still friends but the gap is not so nice. Thinking I don't like to talk to him nor give him an idea that I like to have a conversation with him. But whatever memories we had.. I always cherish and keep it wherever and whatever I will become.

New Moon

The much awaited New Moon Saga is coming to town. I could not wait much longer to see it in the big screen. When I saw the first sequel which is Twilight I already think of the second one which is New Moon. I have already read the four books and hopefully the movie will not disappoint me. It was all a page-turner. I'm quite stirred up for New Moon saga.

check out the official website of The Twilight Saga: New Moon:

http://www.twilightthemovie.com/