Someone told me yesterday that I'm not that visible when it comes to my true feelings. Yes.. that's true. I'm good in hiding it. I'm good in faking my emotions. I hate it when people see me cry and also pretend that they really care. Maybe I just don't believe in anyone anymore because I was taken care for granted with everyone surrounding me. I'm not a robot. I'm not a toy. I am a human who has actual feelings. I feel so incomplete right now. I'm stupid if i'll say that I always have my parents beside me all the time and my son, Gabriel but it's very different when you have someone dear in your life that will support you and will give you more strength to go on with the hardships of life.
I am longing for someone who will love me with an undying love, someone capable of understanding the real me , one I can rely all the time and makes me feel complete even if everything seems to be blury.
The question is who will be that someone? I'm not in a hurry though. But as of the moment, I like someone so much that I close my door to other guys. But I know we can't never be together and there will be no us. I'm so afraid to open up. To get very close with anyone, afraid that I might fall into a deadly trap again and will be left alone in the end. I'm scared like a child. I'm scared that once I allow someone to know me more, he will like me and eventually fall. I'm just too scared to hurt myself or that person. I don't know if I can manage to be alone for a long time. But I just realized that it is better to be one for a long period of time and wait for my prince than to be with anyone I like and end up being hurt over and over again. I will break the chain and make new changes in my life.
It's quiet ironic.. your first paragraph contradicts to your 2nd paragraph.. simple yet complicated.. it's hot, yet it's cold..
ReplyDeletemind over heart.... you have to weigh things...
yep..i know..:).. i posted it with a purpose of course.
ReplyDeletemay ng malibog ang mag basa bah.. ang mga nakybw ra gyud sa exact detail ang makasabot..:)
Mr. DJ
ReplyDelete- oh! that's quite a losing stuff. I think u can love someone so easily that's why it happened. You better know the person more than his friends. I know this is kinda a long process but this is the best option u can do.
Love is something u are willing to give out with. Willing to sacrifice and willing to give everything just to make it work.
I feel the same of what you have right now but it was before. I was alone in the dark and waiting for someone who can give a shade and help me go out. She helped me but she left me but i understand how it feels to be alone. You want to be recognized by someone you loved.
At least she give me a little shade to learn more and need to move on. In the start,Love is not like always happiness. You need to do your best to retain that happiness.
live with your life with a full of smile and don't be sad..
if you need more words, you can keep in touch with me..
forever.dreamer.dj@gmail.com
Thank you so much for the comment mr. dj. hope to see more comments from you..
ReplyDeleteYep... you're right.. you got my point though..
Mr.Dj
ReplyDeletewhoa! got a response from u then.
Hope things will get better and better..
Yah, friend is different from having someone special. I know it will come..
it will really come..
Yep..:).. tnx
ReplyDeletenice ang comment nila.. ako dili... pray lang jud.. mao pay sulti ni mandy moore..
ReplyDelete"to be only your I pray.."
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toinkz.. pag sure loi oi.. nice tanan comment.. :)
ReplyDeletekanang.. na a koi nabantayan...
ReplyDeletewat man imong nabantayan jorch? mind if you'll share it..:)
ReplyDeleteahaha..kanang kuan mae.. ahmm... na a kai stalker.. bwahahaha..
ReplyDeletewaaaaaa.. stalker lagi.. hihi.. simbako intwn..:)
ReplyDeletelol. eng eng eng.. ari ta mag samok2x beh. kay aron magbaha ni. haha. ehem. here i go.. i'm xur u're very much familiar wid dis lines..
ReplyDelete"There's no "US", only you & me"..haha.. pseudo relationship? aw. the parang kayo pero hindi stage? whew. hard! isn't it? hehe.. that's okay dai.. sooner or later, u will find the guy who's just right for u. time maybe too slow for u but believe it or not, u will, in time.. okay? heheh.. spoko.. :-)
yep.. i know sayeee.. thanks dai.
ReplyDeleteeng eng eng.. ikw jud.. kybw ka asa ko biklon dah. hahah