love crisis???

Am I experiencing love crisis? Ingon man gud to akong migo na why is it it's so unlike me not to have someone beside me.. like the person I love. Well, the answer for that is plain "wala lang". I' m not into it and i'm not ready yet to enter to another relationship thingy. Mabuang nako if ma hurt napod ko ug balik sa taw na not deserving for my sweet love. I just realized something that when your single you can always mingle to everyone. Unlike when you are with someone, probably having a relationship or having a mutual understanding with someone else then that's the time that you usually stop mingling to others. Your world will focus more on that person, forgetting that some other people out there cares for you the most that your current boyfriend or girlfriend will not be able to give you. That is FRIENDSHIP. People can always see me nowadays with different sets of companion. They are all my friends. Some are just newly met some are long time friends. It's so ironic that when you have a girlfriend or girlfriend, it seems that the world is only focusing to your beloved partner, not able to see the other world around you. However, the disadvantage of having no boyfriend or girlfriend beside you is that, you don't have always someone you can turn to when you have a problem, no one will go with you when you want to go somewhere. Lahi raman gud ng someone na mabitad dayn unlike sa imong mga barkada or something, they always have their own life and priorities. There are times I feel so alone and I remember those painful moments I had with a person leading me to cry. hahahah. EMO moment kunohay. But no one can blame me right? I even shared my thoughts and feelings to a friend of mine about my status in life right now. He said why not go on a date? Hmmm.. I always paused and got tongue-tied everytime he ask that question. Funny noh? Well.. he can't blame me.. I just don't trust anyone right now. It's good as saying I don't trust myself that much when it comes to love kay always ko palpak. I don't want a perfect relationship just a magical and honest one. It's hard to please me nowadays and if someone attempt to ask me to date with them, reject man dayn nko ang offer. Hmmm. but i'm pretty sure that if I think that someone is the right one for me, one who will not leave me and want to spend the rest of his life with me then he is always welcome and assure that i won't let him go no matter what... :)