So confusing....

I'm sick. Everything is very hazy and I don't know why. Seems the road i'm taking is not the right one.. How will I ever know if it is the right or the wrong one? What is the difference between the two? Any idea people? I'm just quite depressed and I'm not really sure where i'm heading or if i'm doing the right stuff. Hayz.. I just don't know if I can still carry the burden that I'm carrying right now. Have you been to a situation where you don't know where you stand in a person's life? Like he cares for you then all of a sudden everything change in a snap of second? Like you just realize that you are alone in a sense but not that much? Do you know the feeling of being hurt by someone you love and at the same time being happy for him? Like you want to hate him but you just can't eventhough you have all the reason to be mad? What a feeling. I just hate being the second option. I hate being hurt everytime I love. I'm too confused. Or am I just the one making all these things very complicated?....:(.. Give me an answer people.. I need your help.. or do I really need one?

Ani ko ka confuse ron na I don't know the reason why I wrote it.. Basta mao nana xa.. sigh*